Those were some of the older poems i've written. Some were about Joshil, some were about Sanjosh.
Like i said, my words, my poems, are my heart.
I'll post newer ones. and will keep doing so. =)

xx J

Some Lost, Others Gained

Tears fall from this face

Everyday in this life

As the days pass

Reasons change

Some things lost

Others gained

But a little part

Of this heart

Carved into a hole

I lose a lover

But gain a friend

I lose a friend

But gain inspiration

I lose inspiration

But gain memories

By Joanna Ambrose

Sorry

I’m sorry for falling in love with your deep brown eyes

I’m sorry for falling in love with your secretive smile

I’m sorry for falling in love with your infectious laugh

I’m sorry for falling in love with the friendship we shared

Because everything we had was just filled with lies

Everything we had, was not ours all this while

After all that’s been said and done, you tore me in half

But what killed me the most was that you never really cared

All I did, was show you my heart

And wonder about our tomorrow

But there’s not going to be a tomorrow for me or us

Because you took it from me

You’ve wrenched from me

You erased my faith

And that, is what I’m most sorry for.

Lost and Found

Feels like I’ve been lost all this while

Finally I’ve been found

Been shown the light

Now I remember

What it’s like to smile

To laugh

I was lost in the darkness

Of a cave on an island somewhere

Isolated, all alone

But you were my candle

You lit my path

Brought me out of that cave

I was lost among the trees

In a forest so thick

Couldn’t find my way out

But you were my compass

You led me through it

And brought me out

I’ve been lost for so long

Didn’t think I’d be found

But here I am, found

You saved me

That time when I was lost

Now seems like just a distant memory, fading.

by Joanna Ambrose

Illusions of the heart

You thought he was the love of your life
The one, the only
But then you realise
He doesn't see the person you could be

To him you're just a pretty face
Nothing more, nothing less

He doesn't know you
And you don't know him
You've never looked into each others eyes
To see what's within

But sometimes you both feel so above
Is it 'like' or is it 'love'?

You don't know what to say
Since you've both been apart
It's obvious in every way
What you both had, was the illusions of the heart.

by Joanna Ambrose

Dont Make Me

Don’t make me apologise

For something I did not cause

For something that is not my fault

For a situation I did not create

Don’t make me wonder

About the things that went wrong

About someone I no longer know

About something I’m lost between

Don’t make me speak

When I don’t want to talk

When I need to be quiet

When I have to understand the silence

Because when you make me apologise

It will be for something you caused

And if I were to apologise, I would on my own

With no persuasion form anyone but me

When you make me wonder

I will be breaking myself even more

Because the memories will come back to haunt me

And I will never know peace

When you make me speak

Words filled with spite and anger may be heard

Emotions will be let loose

And those I cherish, will be hurt

You did this to me

The things I did, the thoughts I thought, the words I said

Everything was because of you

Because you broke this already bruised heart

So I won’t speak, not with you

I want to make no conversation with you

Because I choose to do so

Because this was your doing

And I will not wonder, not about you

I will not let my thoughts stray to you

Because I choose not to

Because this is what you did

And I will not apologise, not to you

I make no apologies

For the way I choose

To mend what you broke

So don’t try to make me.

by Joanna Ambrose

Daze

I know what’s happening is so wrong
I know I shouldn’t let it go on
But I can’t help falling in love with you
I’m so confused I don’t know what to do
I’m losing my mind going insane
I’m sick of playing this game

But I don’t know how to stop it
I just can’t forget
That feeling when you’re near
Those bumblebees in my tummy
The sweat running down my forehead
Doesn’t it all tell you something?

When you’re near
I’m breathless and confused
I just want to hold you
But when you’re here
I’m lost for words
Words I need to say wont come out

When you leave
You take away my light, my air
I’m blinded and I can’t breathe
When you turn around
I want to reach out and touch you
And make you mine

Everything I’m feeling for you
It feels so right
It’s what I’ve been waiting for
So why does it confuse me?
Why does it leave me in a daze when I think of you?

by Joanna Ambrose

Blink

You were my light

Can’t see without you

You were my air

Can’t breathe without you

You were my emotions

Can’t feel without you

You’re gone

You’ve left

In the blink of an eye

You were not there

You were my thoughts

I don’t know what to think without you

You were my joy

I don’t remember how to smile without you

You were my heart

It doesn’t beat without you

I don’t know why you’re gone

I don’t know why you left

If I blink my eyes

Will you come back?

by Joanna Ambrose

Believe

It's harder than you think
To find out who you are
So you've got to look
Deep inside your heart

Believe in yourself
Believe in what you can do
Open your eyes
Before it's too late for you to

Believe in your destiny
What ever it may be
Believe in the person you must be
Only then will you see

The things you thought important
Are no longer as important as they seemed
The one you thought was the love of your life
Is no longer part of your dream

So you must continue your journey
Even without that one
Walk alone if you have to
Because what's done is done

When you reach down inside of you
You see for yourself
The things in this world
That make you, you

by Joanna Ambrose

Because

Because of the way he smiles

That lets me know he’s true

Because of the words he speaks

That make me blush furiously

Because of the laughter in his eyes

That shows me his sweet and cheeky side

Because of the sweat in my hands

Whenever he’s around

Because of the smile he brings to my face

That never turns into a frown

Because of the way he makes my heart race

When I hear him say ‘I Love You’

Because he’s a dream

I want him so much

Because of his good heart

I need him with me

Because he’s the one I want

I love him with all my heart.

by Joanna Ambrose

Anything At All

I could sit with you all day

And just watch you smile

Just sit with you and listen to you talk

Be with you and only feel your touch

I could say everything I need to say to you

Without saying a word

Yet you understand

You simply know

I could lie next to you forever

And never move

Because with you next to me

There’s no way I could go

I would give you everything of me

Anything at all

Everything you need

I would give you

I love you this much

I would do anything at all

Anything you need

Even if it means I’d be doing too much

by Joanna Ambrose