Goodbye

You'll never find another girl like me
A girl who put up with all your lies and cheating
A girl who lived with all the scars you caused
A girl who put up with everything
Til it killed her inside
And even then loving you with all her soul
She lost herself in you
She lost her spirit for you
She suffered everything for you
Yet there she stood, lonely and hurt

Glancing in a mirror by accident
She saw herself for the first time in ages
She saw the faded smile
The hollow eyes
The broken soul
She broke down for awhile
She knew she needed you there and then
But where were you?

That's when she realised
She knew she needed out
From your chains she was bound in
From your grip of her
She needed to set her heart free
Oh, the heartache it took
The tears, just to let you go
And now you try crawling back into her life?

Enough is enough
A heart can only take so much
And for you,
This heart has reached its edge
This time it's over
And finally, it's for good.

Goodbye.

Relieved

Breathing into the darkness

I saw my life for what it really was

Those lies and the deception

Because everything with you was a complication

And everything I did

It felt like I needed your validation

The fights we had filled me with grief

Those good moments we had

Were always too brief

But since you’ve been gone

And since I’ve been alone

All that I feel now is relief.

Relief that it’s all over

That I don’t have to experience you anymore

Reprieved that now

I can live my life for me

For once in my life I won’t let myself feel

Like my heart tore

I’m climbing one step higher

One day at a time

One step at a time

And finally, FINALLY

I can push myself a little bit harder, a little bit higher

Because you’re not there to hold me back anymore.

Sorry

I’m sorry for falling in love with your deep brown eyes

I’m sorry for falling in love with your secretive smile

I’m sorry for falling in love with your infectious laugh

I’m sorry for falling in love with the friendship we shared

Because everything we had was just filled with lies

Everything we had, was not ours all this while

After all that’s been said and done, you tore me in half

But what killed me the most was that you never really cared

All I did, was show you my heart

And wonder about our tomorrow

But there’s not going to be a tomorrow for me or us

Because you took it from me

You’ve wrenched from me

You erased my faith

And that, is what I’m most sorry for.

Illusions of the heart

You thought he was the love of your life
The one, the only
But then you realise
He doesn't see the person you could be

To him you're just a pretty face
Nothing more, nothing less

He doesn't know you
And you don't know him
You've never looked into each others eyes
To see what's within

But sometimes you both feel so above
Is it 'like' or is it 'love'?

You don't know what to say
Since you've both been apart
It's obvious in every way
What you both had, was the illusions of the heart.

by Joanna Ambrose

Blink

You were my light

Can’t see without you

You were my air

Can’t breathe without you

You were my emotions

Can’t feel without you

You’re gone

You’ve left

In the blink of an eye

You were not there

You were my thoughts

I don’t know what to think without you

You were my joy

I don’t remember how to smile without you

You were my heart

It doesn’t beat without you

I don’t know why you’re gone

I don’t know why you left

If I blink my eyes

Will you come back?

by Joanna Ambrose